anxious...

sooo im going to meet up with this dude in a lil bit, and im mad nervous! lmao i was supposed to meet up with him last night, but i fell asleep putting jayden down. he wasnt even mad, at least he didnt show that he was. shit if it had been me, i wouldve cursed his ass out lol. but yea im thinking this might be a little weird because its him. but i dont know, we'll see. i was telling queeta how i hope he turns the lights off because i dont think ill be able to do it if they're on! lmao im mad dumb. he sent me a pic of his thingy thang and he's not small in any way. he's gonna fucking hurt me! lol oh well ill take it like a champ. damn yo i hope im not wack bc its been so long for me. i havent gotten any since like march. maaadddd long! but before that it had been like 10 months, so i guess this is nothing. its just...weird! he's not even that cute, but im not looking for anything more than a booty call right now anyways. im too bruised for anything more. so fuck that! im just gonna have me some fun, and not do it in a slutty way lol. man o man o man. i dont even know what to do with myself right now. lol